Dear Milo,
Yesterday you turned 22-months old! Yes, you are getting another combined letter this time… but I have an excuse! Really! Oh great, I'm not setting a very good example am I?

But seriously, let's get to that excuse. Just before you turned 21-months old I did something big. I took a trip to New York. Alone. Without you. You stayed home with your dad and Brody while I visited Auntie Jessica and her family in the big city. I had a blast, but that's a story for another time. The thing that affects you is that I was gone. For four whole days. And you know what? We all survived! We all had our own fun and at the end of it we were so happy to come back together and have more fun together. It was just what we all needed. When I got back I was so excited to do all the things we always do together and I just felt rejuvenated. Then, I got sick with a cold. No big deal, I thought, I'll power through. Then the next week it turned to a sinus infection. I got a bit irritated but thought, it'll pass no problem. And it did after about four days. Then two days later I got a stomach virus that laid me out for three days. I had about three days of feeling good, then BOTH you and I got sick with nasty colds! We are now getting over that, but this is all to say that, see? I've been busy! Busy being sick which is not a fun busy at all. So, I am sorry for your combined letter, but I hope you understand.

All this waiting to write the letter is not to say you're not doing anything interesting or exciting. Quite the contrary! You are doing SO many things that are so fun to witness I get overwhelmed thinking about what all I need to write down. You are doing things like talking in sentences, counting to TEN, identifying colors and singing your ABC's. Sure you still skip a few letters in the ABC song here and there and your sentences are a bit out of order sometimes, but wow. You totally blow my mind, kid.

One of my favorite things that happened during these past few months started out to be really annoying. One night about 15 minutes before bedtime your father thought it would be a fun idea to show you his guitar. His real, live, grown-up guitar. The one like your teacher in music class uses. Don't get me wrong. I am all for encouraging your musical interests, I just thought the timing could've been a bit better. You went into the bath whining for more time with the guitar and talked about it incessantly until it was time to sleep. INCESSANTLY.

See, you do this thing where you get a little obsessive about things and don't stop talking about them. Ever. Like, also this month there was a little incident where Brody accidentally poked you in the eye with his finger and we had to take you to the doctor to make sure your bloody eyeball wasn't going to fall out. It didn't. It's fine. It was just a bruise. But going to the doctor is such a traumatic experience for you that you still talk about "Bro-Bro poke eye. Doc help you. Eye OK. It's OK." It's hilarious, but Brody wishes you would let this one go. He felt bad enough when it happened, but now he has to hear about it every time you see him, five weeks later.

Anyway, back to the guitar. So that night when putting you to bed we assured you that you would be able to play with the guitar again in the morning after you woke up. Well, you just couldn't wait that long. You woke up not one, not two, but THREE times that night. Calling from your crib singing and talking, "Eye-a-pay-lellow-tar." (which translates to: I would like to play with the yellow guitar now, please.) So cute. So endearing. So many times woken up. But, that was just that night. Though your affinity for the guitar hasn't died down, the needing to play in the middle of sleep time did. It's still the first thing you talk about in the morning though. Oh, and the songs you play, Milo. They are the sweetest thing to witness. You sit there on the floor with this guitar that is bigger than you on your lap, strumming the strings, rocking back-and-forth and singing. Mostly your songs are the same that you have been singing for a few months now. Our names, friends names, the animals names, but recently you have also been singing about the yellow guitar. You can occupy yourself for quite a while playing music (like, I have time to make coffee while you're playing...sometimes breakfast too). I have burned these memories deeply into my brain. They are so special and dear. Whether or not you become a famous musician some day and I need to relay these memories to the
Behind the Music people, I never want to forget how you look, how you sound and how happy you are when you are making your music.

One of my least favorite parts of being sick all these weeks is that I feel like we've missed out on a lot of Autumn. It has been beautiful here with many sunny, crisp days where the leaves are changing and there is that little bit of sting in the air, but it's still nice enough to be outside doing things. We have gone on a few walks and to the park when possible, but the one thing I was REALLY looking forward to doing with you this fall was going to a pumpkin patch. We had plans to go with friends the day I came down with the stomach virus. I felt bad so I sent you off with your dad to experience it without me. You guys had fun, but it's not the same if we're not all there. So we made plans to go the following weekend. The day you woke up with a 102° fever. So none of us went that week. Finally, last weekend, you and I were both
just starting to feel better so I made the decision on Sunday that we HAD to go to the pumpkin patch. Sure it was one of the coldest days we've had since last winter, rain threatened all day and you and I probably should've been napping, but we made the most of it and had a wonderful time. You were even brave enough to go on a pony ride! We left just as the rain started falling from the sky happy, full of doughnuts and hot apple cider with the smell of animals on our hands feeling victorious that we had made it out for such a fun adventure after a week of being home-bound and sick.

One of the other sad parts about being sick is that you and I had a special trip planned to Montana to visit Pop for his 99th birthday and we weren't able to make it. We had so much fun last year and I showed you all of our pictures. We talked about how we were going to ride on an airplane together (you wanted to make sure it was going to be a blue one, not a black one) and how Grandma might let you ride on her tractor. We were going to make a train cake for Pop and sing happy birthday, but we didn't get to do any of that. We will make the trip sometime soon, it just won't be for that special occasion, but it will be special nonetheless.

Milo, something I have noticed recently is that life is so much richer because of you. You really make everything more exciting and special. I notice so much more around me. I want to talk to you about all of it, experience it all with you and hear you talk about it. If I happen to be driving alone in the car (which doesn't happen all that often) and a school bus happens to pass by, or a trash truck, or really anything with a motor I wish you were there with me. I never knew how excited I would be about seeing a boat in the water or a train passing by, but whether you are with me or not I notice these things now and experience them in a different way than before. A more enjoyable way. And those are just the things with motors... there's SO much more than that. Everything feels new again because I get to share it with you now. I guess I just really wanted to say thank you.

Love Always,
Mama